frustrated

sometimes i wonder why ive made so many bad decisions in my life...i am the only one responsible for my actions.but i cant imagine making some of the horrible decisions you've made.i think youre were a bad leader,you mentally took our mother away from us,the verbel abuse,the shame of your crimes and actions has affected me with drugs  and extreme behavior.now im in the calm of my life, and you had to come back from the dead.i dont understand why youre so demanding, and only ask me for favors.all of your drama and issues have slapp'd me in the face and i dont know how to take it.im sad,depress'd and have a bad attitude.i cant be this person.i have a husband and children .and you dont seem to care.i feel bad for your living situation,but its your choice's that have lead you there.not mine! ...im so frustrated.i wish my dad could know all these feelings.i tried to tell him and he just turns everything around,and he's the victom...uggghhhh,i just want peace and happiness.not only for my myself but my kids and husband my brother and sister...